~BrOkEn2NiTe

So, I'm sitting here in my little cubbyhole (I shoved my desk in a closet and made it my kewl lil area)surrounded by notebooks of my random writings, journals with notes jotted down, books for research, and various other things, while sitting here at my computer listening to music, looking up the magical properties for stones, and eating popcork while drinking chocolate milk. I have hit an all time low.

Yah know, a while back this possibly would have made me feel comforted. I mean, seriously, what do I love better then writing, reading, music, popcorn, and chocolate milk? This used to be what I did on a daily bases, and was quite content with it. That was when I used to relish in my alone time and need it to be sane. So what happened?

A relationship fucking happened, that's what!

Four and a half months of someone constantly shoved up my anus made me really un-used to be alone. And now I've found that there is something I love more then writing, reading, music, popcorn, and chocolate milk. People.

I love being around people. I love having friends or family (or anybody really) around me, simply because it makes me feel alive. I know that I can't constantly be around people, so this is something I'm going to have to grow accustomed too again I suppose...it's just a very slow process. I never realized how empty the other side of the bed really is, till there isn't anyone sleeping in it.

And you wanna know a great way to make yourself feel alive and get your blood pumping?? Do a Chinese Fire Drill. I did my first last night/early this morning with Taylor, and it was hilarious! First we nearly colide, then I almost trip over my clumsy self. It was awesome! I was laughin' so hard, it was crazy!

Ummmmm so tonight I had a breakthrough in one of the story ideas I'd been tossing around my head for a while, the one about Witches and Vampires. I put together a pretty killer soundtrack already, with more songs to be added. I'll edit this sucker as soon as I have at least some of the songs on project playlist. Some of the songs I can't find on there, so their just on my media player. I'll type those up so you can go listen on your own if you're so inclined.

But for those of you who are familiar with my character Briste---I'm writing her story FINALLY!!!!! I know is going to be thrilled to see that!!!! Well, it's not exactly in the writing stages as of yet---more like the research and development stages, but it's in the works!

I'm actually in the writing process of a new idea I've recently come up with. It's a toss between fiction and my real life, even though it's got more real life then anything. I'm calling it my Not-So-Fiction Novel. Heh. I've actually written up to chapter 3, and need to get to editing and whatnot. I've recently been thinking about it and realize I need to take a different direction with the female character (me) because I'm focusing too much on the male character. It's strange, because it's the first time I've ever really written from a males first person perspective, which is difficult, but I seem to like it so much I'm doing it too much.

Uhmmm so on the writing front I suppose that's all I have to say. I'm going to head off to bed. Remember, don't wear flip-flops on a Chinese Fire Drill!!!!!!!!!

Ablios folksies-Ali

"That's what you get when you let your heart win," That's What You Get, Paramore