Well, it's been a while since I've posted a journal. I guess because I've had no idea what to write after the last entry. I guess I could start with tellin ya'll how my Aunt is doin'!

Well, the doctors said she wouldn't make it outta the hospital, and guess where she is? Nursing home bitches! HA! My Aunt is a strong lil ole' fart! Gonna take more then a few lil ole' blood clots to get her down! It's the Sheppard blood in her! Our whole family is full of fighters man. She's on dialisis three times a week, and she's 80, so that's going to wear her body down considerably. She's still going to die, there is no getting around that, but it isn't going to be as soon as we anticipated. She's a very sick lady and I know it's selfish, but I can't help but want her here.

So I guess there is no use in lying to myself about it anymore---I really do suck as a girlfriend. I completely dropped the ball when it came to doin the right thing. I just honestly don't know what the fuck I'm doing! I haven't EVER been in a relationship like this, and I really don't know what to do with it. I'm trying, but I feel like I'm failing miserably.

There isn't really much else to write now, so I'ma go, and remember, if you love someone...don't screw it up.

Ali

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~RockOnEllenPage

Mar 17, 2008, 7:43:53 PM

Lol, everything will be just fine

I'm pretty suckish at being a girlfriend too, but at least we learn and have fun along the way

All you have to do is put yourself out there, give them your all while keeping yourself, and hope that everything falls right into place. If it doesn't... well it was fun anyways? Aha.
Well I just broke up with my boyfriend two days ago.
I feel way better!!
I mean, of course I didn't want to stop dating him, but it just wasn't working. I was giving 101% and he was giving a half ass 0.001%
In a relationship it's natural for someone to like somebody more than the other like them, but compromising and communicating is key too, and without that it isn't worth the effort that gets put into smoothing things out.
Anyways, I probably didn't help you, and I'm still only a little tiny teenager, SOO. I hope for you the best!

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"There goes my hero; he's ordinary."
"Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change."
"Forgetting all the memories, try to forget love 'cause love's forgotten me."
~ Paramore

~BrOkEn2NiTe

Mar 17, 2008, 9:54:31 PM

lol u may be a little tiny teenager, but you seem to know ur shit kiddo! That made me feel a little better

at least it made me laugh! Thanks!

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"Be great in acts are you have been in thought,"-William Shakespeare

~noodle-soup

Mar 17, 2008, 10:28:32 PM

Love ya muchly =]

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And Its Not So Much That Im Here Without You,
Its That Im Here Without Me.

~mysticlover

Mar 17, 2008, 10:39:38 PM Mood: Wow!

im glad ur aunt is doin a lil better and my brothers a sheppard and he is always fighting and he never gives up even if he is losing-which never happens but im glad ur aunt is better